Hello.
Since I stopped blogging two years ago, I changed a lot in many ways. I told you about music. I'm also more adult and different thanks to all the things I experienced.
I was really hungry for the free life of a hippie child at 2014/2015, my music taste was infulenced by free spirit and I learnd a lot at this time. I was wearing mostly dresses with colorfull prints, I just looked like happy hippie girl at this time..
End of 2015 and start of 2016 was mostly in punk way of dressing - but that's typical for me, always was and always will (i hope). I came back to black colour, weird accesories, torned tights... but still afraid of make-up things and of being too extravagant and visible in crowd.
Summer 2016 was important for me in the fashion way. I realized how much I love to look the best way I can and that it's not a shame to love fashion, to follow the trends you like, to collect shoes etc. I decided to build my style with a passion, to create and to look however I want to, no matter what society things. I also realized that it's fun to discuss fashion with my boyfriend, who is deeply interested with fashion photography.
I finally started to shoot my ootd's again.
I sewed this hooded weird thing!
...and I created theese leatherate harness :)
I can't shoot ootd's so often now and Im really sorry about it, cause I like to see how my style is developing and changing. The thing is that we (me and by boyfriend) moved out from our old flat and we should move into our new flat, but then we found out that the floor in there is absolutelly rotten and it's impossible to live there. We come to an agreement with an owner that he'll fix it. Everything is almost done, but we had to live for three months in my mother's place just with some important things. We'll move soon, but I still have just a few important pieces of clothing and no place for shooting.
The only thing I can do is to draw my outfits.
The last and newest thing for me is that Im not afraid of make-up things anymore. I love to wear red lipstick and Im also learning to do some magical tricks with liquid eyeliner on my eyes :D Its mostly terrible, because my hand is shaking and I just can't do it symmetrical, but I'm proud begginer!
I'm looking forward to our new flat, I'll shoot my ootd's in there! And I'm also curious about how I'll change in 2017 :)
Not sure how to start, but let’s take it chronological..
I’m 1994
kid and I was born in golden age of grunge. Kurt Cobain was freshly dead
and his fame was rising even more thanks to this. I was born to
“underground” family, my father was famous hardcore bass player, my
mum’s nickname was Patti Smith.
So that’s my start. I was raised in
classic rock surroundings. When I was in uterus, my mum was listening
Nirvana. The first music that I ever heard and even now, when I hear
Nirvana, it’s for one hand too
over-listened, but for another it’s still magical and usually when I
sleep and dream about some music, it’s Nirvana.
Kid years are mostly about kids songs and what your parents listens.
So basically they gave me great music basics. Patti Smith, Velvet
Underground, The Doors, Alice in Chains, David Bowie, Hendrix, Janis
Joplin, Joan Jett, Jefferson Airplane, …
When I was like.. 10 years old, I started to really like some music,
that showed me my parents and I also started with finding something new by myself.
I became a big fan on Pixies, PJ Harvey and System of a Down. Especially PJ Harvey, I also infected my cousin :D
When
I was 12, we had almost the same music taste with my cousin, so we were
exchanging music that we like and it was almost like some competition
“who will find better music”. We found that the music we like is called
“alternative” and “indie”.
I loved Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Arctic Monkeys, I
remember that The XX was really unknown new band, The Kills and The
Dead Weather, The Libertines and Pete Doherty…
Okay. I was 13-14, when I met metalhead guy and he was big
inspiration for me. He was the only intelligent guy in my age that i
knew. I was never metalhead, but at this period I found some awesome music that is
connected with metal. Tool, Nine Inch Nails, Marilyn Manson, The
Agonist, Deftones, more Serj Tankian..
Okay.
Next. I was 15, dating 23 years old guy who liked “soft” music. I was
still into all these old thing I was listening (when you start to like
something, it’s all your life with you. You can’t throw away your
“indie” period. It’s still with you.), but I was trying hard to find
some music that we both can like. I also started to listen dark cabaret.
So the queen for me was Emilie Autumn, of course. Than Amanda Palmer, Birdeatsbaby, Nouvelle Vague, Vermilion Lies..
Soon I discovered Siouxsie and the Banshees. I was 16, maybe 17. And
with Siouxsie, Bauhaus. My aunt was always listening Sisters of Mercy in
car and I started to love it. I also remember listening Alien Sex
Fiend, summer 2011, and my father who said “oh i was listening this when
I was your age”. Joy Division. I was also more and more depressed and
this music was just the right thing for me.
End of my first relationship. I was even more
depressed, crying daily with Nick Cave’s music. I went to Finland for
erasmus. Cure mania started. I tried to find some good post-punk and
“goth” music. Cabaret Grey, Echo and the Bunnymen, Jesus and Mary Chain,
Killing Joke, Savages, Sex Gang Children, Silent Scream,..
I started to be happy about this new “genre” i found for myself and
my parents never told me about it /and they knew many of these bands!/
It was like… patch for my bleeding. I started to look ahead for my life.
I dated the sexiest punk boy from my city and I was so proud of it.
We were listening punk mostly, but we both liked also post-punk and goth
music. Again it was like competition - who will find better music. It
was awesome period, but we were too stupid and like.. .”proud punk pair”
that was together just thanks to alcohol. So we broke up. It gave me
great music to listen! Misfits, I studied classical punk bands, also Tom
Waits, Christian Death, Black Flag…
Okay. Than the short period with jazz lover. We were listening Nick Cave together and Morphine.
Again - too much alcohol in relationship.
Even shorter period of dating with awesome and sexy goth guy, but we
started to date sooner then we could really know each others and i have to
say that this person is great friend but I need a totally different
kind of man. But he showed me some awesome bands and also he showed me
how to “find” goth concert in czech republic and that’s it’s not so
weird to visit them.
I'm listening Belgrado, Masquerade and Skeletal Family thanks to him.
Okay. I was 18 and my music taste was almost where it is right now. I
was trying to find something calm but dark at she same time. Crystal
Stilts, AKACOD, White Fence, Thee Oh Sees. Sonic Youth times. Something
between alternative, dark atmosphere and jazzy sounds.
I started to date my current boyfriend when I was 19. I was listening
my “dark” music, but he showed me jazz and I liked it. Typical Miles
Davis. Lou Donaldson, Herbie Hancock, Lonnie Smith. Than also calm
music as
Air, Can,..
But I was tired of all these stupidly “happy” sounds and I showed some of my music to my BF.
We together started to like more electronic music. I like electronic
sounds in cold wave music, he is more into normal electro or techno.
Today I like dark electronic music. I like typical old rock
legends. I like old goth legends. But now I’m examining cold wave
and dark wave and I'm not so much into deathrock as I was.
So now… it’s all about Lebanon Hanover, Xmal Deutschland, She Past
Away, Linea Aspera, Pleasure Symbols, Absolute Body Control, Beta Evers,
The Soft Moon, Gazelle Twin, Haus Arafna, etc.
But still… you can’t throw away your old times. So sometimes I just
need to listen something that I was listening while my punk period or
indie period or metal period… :)
And I have to say THANK YOU to everyone who influenced me.
Hello!
Since I was not here, many things happend in my life. I'm in long-term relationship, I am not ashamed for my blogging hobbies, I feel more "adult" and I made a huge progress with my art and now I am on the art crossroad again.
Theese years I was more interested with finding my own drawing style and this ends for me now.
I realized that there is still this little "goth femine fashion lover" in me. That I just love to draw for something, that I love to follow the trends I like.
I was desperite for a while, but now I found the way. I've got a scholarship for being good university student and... the money I get... honestly, I've never seen such a big number on my bank account. So I decided to invest. I bought a tattoo machine. I'm working on prints for my gothy fashion brand. Everything is in concept, but I'm getting closer and closer to some results.
I had a big blogging pause. Then I remembered all the blogs I liked, everything about it... I started with my new tumblr, but it's not enough for me. I need to write. About music, about movies, about things I like and I want to share it with you.
PS: I have a gorgeously long hair!!! After this short androgyny look I had on my last posts, I can almost hide my brests under my hair and that's my romantic idea of natural swimwear :D
Hello!
I promised you to write about czech goth bands. Actually, there is not many goth bands here - and if yes, they are not very good. I'll write also about theese, which are not "true goth", but it has this important dark atmosphere and I think that it's good to know them. I don't like this "elite goth" bands that are stocked in one box of music (and sometimes fashion...).
1. Prouza
Old band from late 80's and early 90's.
2. Krch-off
If you are looking for some old-school postpunk/deathrock, this is not for you. A bit of viollin cliché, but theese lyrics!! And atmosphere of course!
3. Kazety
Modern way, lo-fi sound. Actually very minimalistic lyrics and everything. But I still think that this is very important band to know if you are goth in czech republic.
4. Psí vojáci
Yeah... Big boom of this band started last year when the singer died. Now everyone knows them and loves them and is one of theese old fans. But still it's important to know this band, I think.
Than we have here some "true goth" bands. I don't like them so much, but I'm glad that we can have live music on our bat parties and that we can all just meet on their concerts.
for example... brand new band called THE CRYPT ...I would like to say a few words about them, but I just don't know. Im just happy that they are here now, but Im more guitar person and I miss this in their music.
One day I found this band called TONGUE. I like the music, it's just this thing that I like, but... I think they don't play so much- maybe not anymore? THE PROSTITUTES are also "something" like this. I don't like them so much... dont know why. I just... dont like something about them.
...and XIII. Století, I hate them :D
So... Yes, I have this strict opinion for pigeonholingmusic, I know. And also this strange opinion about czech goth community. They are just... in their corner, they are not open to something new which is not considered as "real goth". I think one day, I'll write some post about this. Have a nice days :) N.
