Today Im gonna tell you about my artistic achievements.
(You can see my art tumblr HERE)
I'm 22 and I was studying graphic design + art since I was 15, so im in my field for a really long time..
When I was 15, I was just a young teenager who loves to draw crappy emo shits :D and I thought that graphic design is something I could do for a living. I was accepted to a really prestigious high school in Prague and yeah, I was learning about history of art, graphic design, figural drawing, surrounded by artists and free minded people for four years. Theese years were so awesome, the best memores I have comes from theese times. I learned to draw and all the basics, but I was lost when it came to "my own style".
old drawing
I graduated and I was immediately accepted on art college. But it was far away from my home and I was just so depressed there that I arranged transfer to another college in my home city. The problem was that everyone else was focused on something special, had his own style and I was just good at drawing. Now Im studying graphic-multimedial field in my home city, but it's under the Faculty of Education. Its not very good for "artistic reputation", but it gaves me a lot of time for developing my own style. I started to use all my knowledge of photoshop for illustrations and I like combine drawing by hand with computer graphic. AND after 7 years of studies I can finally say that I can draw hands!! yay!
I had an exhibition 07.01. this year in a Museum and I would like to show you some of my recent works I had there. I chosed "fashion" as a theme and I re-created models into a weird fat creepy monsters.
I would like to study illustration on prestigue art college in Prague, but it's too hard to get there, they accept just 2 people of a 100 every year. But I'm still very young and Im prepared to go throught hell for being a good illustrator.
Also, I would like to make some money with my illustrations and artistic skills and that's maybe the most important task I have. Im working on self-promotion and it's not enough, so I bought a tattoo machine to have some starting income.
Hello,
today Im gonna tell you about goth trend that Im absolutely into..
If you're looking for an aesthetic pleasure, you can see it HERE on my fashion tumblr - its full of trends I find inspiring. But today I'm gonna focus on harnesses.
It's everywhere and I just can't get enough, I just can't get enough. Leather, rubber, whatever, it works so perfectly. It's quite too much sexy and some people thinks that it has to mean you're into BDSM or whatever, but I personally don't care, I just so love how you can wear it with all black outfits and it gives them the icing on the cake. You can wear heavy leather harness with spikes for an absolutelly badass look, you can also wear chainlet harness for a more royal look. It can highlight breasts and make you look more femine or it can goes just simply in the middle of your body or like a bag if you're afraind of sexual meanings... You just can't go wrong with harnesses.
Heavy spiked leather harness if you're not afraid of extreme and provocative look.
I prefer simple stripes as this. It's more acceptable by muggles.
my idea of chainlet harness... and it can be beautifull if it's silver on long black dress...
It's also not so hard to create, I made two pieces of harness for myself and Im wearing it quite often. For the first ones I just had to buy fake leather belts for about 1,50 € and a few silver keychains for about 0,50 €, then I sewed it together. It fits me and noone else and with the rubber ones its almost the same except it was even cheaper.
It's inspired by Linea Aspera and it's made of some cheap fake leather belts.
Rubber harness with rubber choker I made.
Im poor so I have to DIY, but if I was rich I would buy harnesses from here: Rabbit Heart Shop Envy Leather Apatico What do you think about harnesses? I know its just everywhere on tumblr and many of you are probably absolutely sick of it, but I can't help myself, it's just aesthetical pleasure for me. N.
Hello.
Since I stopped blogging two years ago, I changed a lot in many ways. I told you about music. I'm also more adult and different thanks to all the things I experienced.
I was really hungry for the free life of a hippie child at 2014/2015, my music taste was infulenced by free spirit and I learnd a lot at this time. I was wearing mostly dresses with colorfull prints, I just looked like happy hippie girl at this time..
End of 2015 and start of 2016 was mostly in punk way of dressing - but that's typical for me, always was and always will (i hope). I came back to black colour, weird accesories, torned tights... but still afraid of make-up things and of being too extravagant and visible in crowd.
Summer 2016 was important for me in the fashion way. I realized how much I love to look the best way I can and that it's not a shame to love fashion, to follow the trends you like, to collect shoes etc. I decided to build my style with a passion, to create and to look however I want to, no matter what society things. I also realized that it's fun to discuss fashion with my boyfriend, who is deeply interested with fashion photography.
I finally started to shoot my ootd's again.
I sewed this hooded weird thing!
...and I created theese leatherate harness :)
I can't shoot ootd's so often now and Im really sorry about it, cause I like to see how my style is developing and changing. The thing is that we (me and by boyfriend) moved out from our old flat and we should move into our new flat, but then we found out that the floor in there is absolutelly rotten and it's impossible to live there. We come to an agreement with an owner that he'll fix it. Everything is almost done, but we had to live for three months in my mother's place just with some important things. We'll move soon, but I still have just a few important pieces of clothing and no place for shooting.
The only thing I can do is to draw my outfits.
The last and newest thing for me is that Im not afraid of make-up things anymore. I love to wear red lipstick and Im also learning to do some magical tricks with liquid eyeliner on my eyes :D Its mostly terrible, because my hand is shaking and I just can't do it symmetrical, but I'm proud begginer!
I'm looking forward to our new flat, I'll shoot my ootd's in there! And I'm also curious about how I'll change in 2017 :)
Hello there.
Today I want to write about this overgrown trend which is wearing symbols.
Symbols are visual signs and this fashion trend is using mostly occult symbols, ehich are connected with faith.
In my opinion, it's good to belive in whatever makes a sence for you, but you really need to have the brightest intentions. I'm officialy an atheistic, but I personally feel like I am somewhere between christianity, buddhism and judaism..? I also live on the ground of pagans and i quite feel that it's hidden somewehe deep in the roots of our country.
I like to use some powerfull symbols for some special occasions and I belive on power of rituals. In a fashion thing... I like to wear jewelry with symbols on it, but they need to be special. I've got so many old jewelry from my aunt before she died and I know they are really powerfull, they protect me. I lose it when I'm too ignorant and on the wrong way, I find it when I am back on the right way. I've got Ankh from my boyfriend and he did a ritual with it. It protects me. And I really feel it and deeply belive in it. I like to wear golden cross from Spain that I bought from an old lady on the street. I also created pentacle with a piece of wire and yeah, why not, it was made with my own hands so I put some energy into the object... They are all full of some strong magic, they are full of memories and they are all symbols of protection.
Hamsa that my aunt gave me
But then there is this fashion trend when many of unkowning people are wearing pentagrams, sulphurs and inverted crosses and they don't even know what does it mean and they wear it just because of the trend. I don't want to be too moralistic, but I think they are just weak victims of fashion industry, wearing symbols that could be actually stronger then they are. Im not sure if it works like this, but I just don't like when someone is playing with dark magic just like nothing, not knowing the aftermath.
Killstar bag
The other thing is... that all theese killstar pentagrams must be from some cheap material, maybee it can't be even used as magical symbol... When it's made somewhere in factory. Without story behind it. Or not? I have an experience with cheap cross and I haven't feel anything... no protection at all. Anyway... Please, don't let the faith be the fashion thing. Don't call yourself satanistic before you really know that it's your way and don't just play with dark magic before you know everything about it. You don't need to prove your "inner darkness" this way. N.
I told you about the music I was listening a lot last year. I have to tell you also about concerts I visited last year, cause some of the interprets started to be one of my favourites after the concert and I want to show you which ones.
I remember my trip to Prague. It was at March I guess? And it was magical experience. Bestial Mouth
One of the czech bands I saw at leat three times and was aslo forerunner for Bestial Mouth, but they played also in Hradec Králové and I think they are really great czech newborn band. Ba:zel
I don't even remember when, I think it was at spring or in summer?? I was on the concert of White Hills that everyone know from Jarmush's Only lovers left alive. I remember that I felt like in a dream and this glam awesome blonde playing bass was like an half devil half angel.
As a fan of synthesizers and czech undergound band Plastic People of the Universe, I was on concert of B4 - synth covers of PPU. The idea is something like.. "if PPU were from Germany". The concept is quite funny, but you need to know context. As music it's great!
Another great concert of MENU (they're organizing concerts in Hradec Králové) was again Ba:zel but with Julinko and I absolutely fell in love with them. The magical atmosphere that was in old factory where the concert was is written in my mind forever.
I was on Prague Gothic Treffen after 2 years of absence and the organization was pretty awesome. They added live bands, so it's not just goth discoteque, but real concert. Undertheskin were pretty good. Thanks Sancturary.cz for organization.
Autumn. One of the best unsuspected musical experience in Pardubice. It was in little music club called DUB. It was the day when I was depressed that Im not on the concert of Christian Death so I went there to listen at least something and it was really one of the best live musical experience of the last half yer. All Your Sisters. I bougth their LP!
MENU again organized concert of Xarah Dion and she is now in my cold wave playlists. It's such a great music and, as I like to say, it's my cup of tea and it's my blood type.
And that's all. I missed many concerts and I was sad about it, I was also on some bad concerts, but this is quite good number of concerts I really enjoyed last year.
Hope this year will be even better! I decided to spent most of my extra money for culture and LP's and I also want to finally do some minimal cold wave music by myself.
Hello!
Because music is always so important to me and reflects my life, i decided to do a post about what music accompanied me in last year.
So basically... I was desperetly searching for something. I had enough of happy hippie songs all my friends are into. So...At the beggining of the year I was listening a lot of atmospheric minimal experimental electro? I guess..
It wasn't enough dark for me. I'm post-punk by a heart and this has just too much sentimental. I love disharmony, deep dark bass..
I was listnening a lot of Lebanon Hanover, which is my favourite band, i guess, but you can't listen one band all the time, so I was searching for something... The Soft Moon...
Okay... Never enough. I love magical womens in music. Cosmetics are great band, but it sounds more sexual than magical. I love them, but then I found my goddess... She's dark, she's smart, she has absolutely amazing voice... and she sings about things as it was about myself. Linea Aspera /also in other bands... Zainas and Keluar.
That get me right into the todays dark wave, which uses awesome sound of synthesizers, automatical drum machines etc.. I fell in love with the sound.
Another thing I need to show you are November Növelet / Haus Arafna as another project. They are so dark and so depressive and so cold.. awww i love it.
So... I fell deep into the pit of modern goth music. I exchange my music with other goths that I know. Im checking our czech goth web about music, I'm searching and searching, I need and army of dark and cold wave bands in my youtube playlist. She Past Away. They are here for longer time, but I discovered them this year. They are pretty "oldschool", which is not my cup of tea theese days, but still... It's the best todays but classical post-punk that I've heard in a long time.
Next... Absolute Body Control. Oh my... I just need to visit their concert. I'm so in love with this band and the best thing.. my boyfriend loves them too!
Hey.. than so many cold-wave bands that I know thanks to youtube, my friends and some articles... I can't talk ybout everything...
But what really gets me is... Vólkova. Goddess of dark atmosphere again. Bass that flows in my blood system.
My newest discover is Buzz Kill.
So that's all about the music I was listening this year. I think I'm on really great way :D I need to write also about concert in 2016.
Do you have some tips for me? Cold waves, goddess singers, disharmony, dark bass pulse, nihilistic atmosphere?
Not sure how to start, but let’s take it chronological..
I’m 1994
kid and I was born in golden age of grunge. Kurt Cobain was freshly dead
and his fame was rising even more thanks to this. I was born to
“underground” family, my father was famous hardcore bass player, my
mum’s nickname was Patti Smith.
So that’s my start. I was raised in
classic rock surroundings. When I was in uterus, my mum was listening
Nirvana. The first music that I ever heard and even now, when I hear
Nirvana, it’s for one hand too
over-listened, but for another it’s still magical and usually when I
sleep and dream about some music, it’s Nirvana.
Kid years are mostly about kids songs and what your parents listens.
So basically they gave me great music basics. Patti Smith, Velvet
Underground, The Doors, Alice in Chains, David Bowie, Hendrix, Janis
Joplin, Joan Jett, Jefferson Airplane, …
When I was like.. 10 years old, I started to really like some music,
that showed me my parents and I also started with finding something new by myself.
I became a big fan on Pixies, PJ Harvey and System of a Down. Especially PJ Harvey, I also infected my cousin :D
When
I was 12, we had almost the same music taste with my cousin, so we were
exchanging music that we like and it was almost like some competition
“who will find better music”. We found that the music we like is called
“alternative” and “indie”.
I loved Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Arctic Monkeys, I
remember that The XX was really unknown new band, The Kills and The
Dead Weather, The Libertines and Pete Doherty…
Okay. I was 13-14, when I met metalhead guy and he was big
inspiration for me. He was the only intelligent guy in my age that i
knew. I was never metalhead, but at this period I found some awesome music that is
connected with metal. Tool, Nine Inch Nails, Marilyn Manson, The
Agonist, Deftones, more Serj Tankian..
Okay.
Next. I was 15, dating 23 years old guy who liked “soft” music. I was
still into all these old thing I was listening (when you start to like
something, it’s all your life with you. You can’t throw away your
“indie” period. It’s still with you.), but I was trying hard to find
some music that we both can like. I also started to listen dark cabaret.
So the queen for me was Emilie Autumn, of course. Than Amanda Palmer, Birdeatsbaby, Nouvelle Vague, Vermilion Lies..
Soon I discovered Siouxsie and the Banshees. I was 16, maybe 17. And
with Siouxsie, Bauhaus. My aunt was always listening Sisters of Mercy in
car and I started to love it. I also remember listening Alien Sex
Fiend, summer 2011, and my father who said “oh i was listening this when
I was your age”. Joy Division. I was also more and more depressed and
this music was just the right thing for me.
End of my first relationship. I was even more
depressed, crying daily with Nick Cave’s music. I went to Finland for
erasmus. Cure mania started. I tried to find some good post-punk and
“goth” music. Cabaret Grey, Echo and the Bunnymen, Jesus and Mary Chain,
Killing Joke, Savages, Sex Gang Children, Silent Scream,..
I started to be happy about this new “genre” i found for myself and
my parents never told me about it /and they knew many of these bands!/
It was like… patch for my bleeding. I started to look ahead for my life.
I dated the sexiest punk boy from my city and I was so proud of it.
We were listening punk mostly, but we both liked also post-punk and goth
music. Again it was like competition - who will find better music. It
was awesome period, but we were too stupid and like.. .”proud punk pair”
that was together just thanks to alcohol. So we broke up. It gave me
great music to listen! Misfits, I studied classical punk bands, also Tom
Waits, Christian Death, Black Flag…
Okay. Than the short period with jazz lover. We were listening Nick Cave together and Morphine.
Again - too much alcohol in relationship.
Even shorter period of dating with awesome and sexy goth guy, but we
started to date sooner then we could really know each others and i have to
say that this person is great friend but I need a totally different
kind of man. But he showed me some awesome bands and also he showed me
how to “find” goth concert in czech republic and that’s it’s not so
weird to visit them.
I'm listening Belgrado, Masquerade and Skeletal Family thanks to him.
Okay. I was 18 and my music taste was almost where it is right now. I
was trying to find something calm but dark at she same time. Crystal
Stilts, AKACOD, White Fence, Thee Oh Sees. Sonic Youth times. Something
between alternative, dark atmosphere and jazzy sounds.
I started to date my current boyfriend when I was 19. I was listening
my “dark” music, but he showed me jazz and I liked it. Typical Miles
Davis. Lou Donaldson, Herbie Hancock, Lonnie Smith. Than also calm
music as
Air, Can,..
But I was tired of all these stupidly “happy” sounds and I showed some of my music to my BF.
We together started to like more electronic music. I like electronic
sounds in cold wave music, he is more into normal electro or techno.
Today I like dark electronic music. I like typical old rock
legends. I like old goth legends. But now I’m examining cold wave
and dark wave and I'm not so much into deathrock as I was.
So now… it’s all about Lebanon Hanover, Xmal Deutschland, She Past
Away, Linea Aspera, Pleasure Symbols, Absolute Body Control, Beta Evers,
The Soft Moon, Gazelle Twin, Haus Arafna, etc.
But still… you can’t throw away your old times. So sometimes I just
need to listen something that I was listening while my punk period or
indie period or metal period… :)
And I have to say THANK YOU to everyone who influenced me.
