Hello,
here I am with everything I liked and supported this month.
1. Twin Peaks
no surprise. everyone is into twin peaks now, but I was a big twin peaks lover before this mania started so I was super excited when the new series comes out.
here's also my twin peaks tattoo drawing
2. Baroque & Philosophique Girl
I found this band thanks to Unknown Pleasures Records and their free compilation (here). It's an awesome dark electronic band from Japan and if you're goth synth lover as me, you should give it a chance!
3.Theese weird thrifted pants
They are super elastic so I can wear them even with my super big belly! And they're so vampiristic, the red colour is shiny and the black print is dim, so it makes really weird effect.
and my fav outfits of this month (i decided to not post many outfits now, cause i feel fat and ugly last days and it's gonna be even worst):
My new vampiristic elastic pants with witchy top crop and fake winklepickers. It's such a weird outfit, i feel like fat trans vampire in it and people are staring at me so much :D
shoes from Underground Youth, everything else is thrifted
White fairy whatever... I wanted to sell theese dress from India, but now im glad i have them, cause they're comfortable and big enough for my enormous belly. I hate how positively and esoterically white they are, so I decided to wear it with some creepy bones on my neck and plastic platform jelly shoes.
tights from Gate, everything else is thrifted
Any bands you discovered in June?
Or something special happend to you this month?
Hope you're having a great start of the summer :)
N.
Hello.
I decided to tell about random things I like for the last days/weeks...
Prince and Purple Rain
I liked Prince before, he truely is The Prince of pop music, but I saw the movie Purple Rain few weeks ago and I am absolutely in love with him. His fashion style, his moves, his voice...!! <3
Some days I woke up and thought that this is purple rain morning and I need to wear something themed.
And I am not the only one who loves Prince and wears prince-themed oufits. Jasmine-Denise is a great photographer and she's also very inspiring ootd blogger.
Depeche Mode (Live in Berlin)
I was in our local art-cinema to see the projection of their live concert and since I was there I can't stop thinking about it. They were always something like funny pop 80's music - you know, super cute young guys singing "i just can't get enough" and rubbing chickens.
But hey, they are masters of synths and I love the dark side of their music.
I Feel You is my absolutely favourite song. And I love to hear it live!
(and I hate to look at David Gahan's moves - he's absolutely anti sexy for me and his "sexy" dances are disgusting :D)
Striped leggins
My belly is growing fast and my whole body is changing. I can't wear many of my shorts which is the main thing of my wardrobe. I needed to find something more comforable than my usual shorts+stockings+t-shirt combinations. So I am mostly dressed in black and white striped leggins with longer t-shirt or dress or with skirt.
Something like this:
Great thing about my BW striped leggins is that even if you don't care about how you look (because you're walking a dog or whatever) , it's still unusual and alternative and you don't loose your coolness :D
But it's getting warm and I need to find a new dressing routine.
Suncream
I don't care about the brand or whatever. I am addicted to any suncream I own and I need a lot of it. Since I have a dog, I spent at least 30% of a daytime somewhere outside, sometimes it's a whole day and I absolutely hate to be suntanned, it doesn't suit me.
The curious incident of the dog in the nighttime by Mark Haddon
I found this book year ago on the street right next to the paper-bins. This, some Murakami and other books. I gave them to my boyfriend, cause the books were written in english and he, as an teacher, is collecting books in english. This one was somehow attracting me so I red it and I need to recommend it! It's a beautfull story about a little autistic (maybe it's asperger?? it's not stated) boy and it's written in first-person perspective.
Hello.
Today Im gonna tell you about another awesome thing that happend recently in my life. Not just that I'll be mother in four and half months, but I am also FINALLY a dog owner.
I was always a cat person, but few years later I realized that I can "talk" with dogs. So I builded up my knowledge about dogs while walking them from local dog shelter. I was constantly terorizing my boyfriend with "i need a dog" and few months later he accepted that. So I was searching for a dog in local shelter and on the internet. I found few adepts and one super-mega-yeah adept. He was in shelter in another city, so I organized a trip with my boyfriend, my sister, her boyfriend and their dog.
When we stepped in into the shelter, the first thing we see is the dog I saw on the internet, running to us. And my BF said just "oh wow, this is the love at the first sight". So we took him for a walk, did some paperwork and yay - he was our!
His name is Vilík, he's probably 3 years old and he can't eat chicken meat because of an allergy. He's a great hunter, but also great cuddle bear.
He also looks a bit funny - quite like a Michael Jackson.
So we have a dog and it's awesome. But he's quite too much rebellious, so I'm teaching him things as "sit down", "come here" etc. But it's really hard with come here when we're somewhere on fields, cause he smells hares around. I'm walking him on super-long rope, but my bf is more confident and he's running with him without any leash.
And few days ago, we just celebrated one month with a dog, he runned away on the field. And my BF didn't have any phone cause when he's running he don't want to have too many thing in pockets. So he came home without dog and explained what happend to me. We spent a whole day searching for him in the fields and we couldnt find him. I was crying as a baby, I was absolutely desperate, we called a police and at the evening I was browsing the internet, posting insertions - and than I found the photo of him on the web of a local dog shelter. But it was almost 10 o clock at the evening so we had to wait until the next morning. I had really bad dreams that night, I couldn't sleep properly and I woke up really soon at the morning as I couldn't wait anymore.
So we rided up to the shelter. As an official owner, I had to do some paperwork since my BF get our dog back. And Vilík was so happy, jumping around, licking our faces... We had to pay some money to the shelter and than we had to do also some paperwork with police. We payed the lowest penatly you can have, I was prepared for somethinch much more expensive. And everyone was telling jokes like "there you have your little crimminal".
When we came home, Vilík was absolutely super-happy, he rolled over his bed, over our bed, he played with every sock he found on the ground, he happily barked at my rat cage and we were so fucking glad we found him.
So now... walks are possible only with super-long rope. And he has a contact written on his collar. And we don't want to loose him again, so I'm training him more and more and I'm also learning things about how to train dogs and it's getting much better!
Wish me good luck with this little super fast dragon :) and tell me everything about your dog, i love dog talks! Or about your experiences about shelters and disobedient dogs N. and Vilík
Hello!!
I am here after two really long weaks and it seems like it's not even ending. And i am here with some news that will deffinetly affect my life.
So!! Really great thing is that I've done all my exams and I get all A's so I might get stipendium again! Yay but the stress was painfull, I had really hard times. Maybe I'll show you some of my projects Ive done this semester.
Another thing is... Im something like apprentice in tattoo studio!! They will teach me all the techniques and I'll learn to tattoo and they wanted me because of my drawings! And they are really nice there. They want original authors and artists, no boring skulls and butterflies. So that's really big succes for me! They told me that I might be famous tattoo artist and that they want me to teach everything so I can do my work best. But the best thing I have to tell you is... that I'll be mother in 8 months. It was quite shocking information for me, but now Im so happy about it! Im finnishing studies this spring and then taking care of a child? Of my OWN child! I'ts so magical. The mystery of life. Something half me - half my man. We created new life together. And it wasnt even planned :D but it's a great surprise and I belive that this is something called destiny. So!! Wish me good luck and have a nice day! N.
I had a really lazy day today, I am a bit sick, so I slept for many many hours, and the rest of the day, I was watching some youtube videos from music documents throught harajuku fashion videos to goth youtubers and my head is full of thoughts...
I would like to start with the word community. Im not gonna tell you where and who, but I heard someone talking about "strega community" and it get my attention, cause I myslet think that it might be the community where I would love to have some friends and be part of it. But then I just realized that "community" probably means you're just followings other strega people on tumblr and they're following you and maybe youre liking or rebloging each others posts and thats it. They might know just your profile, not you, and if you will see them one day face to face, it's probably gonna be weird and tense? They might not be the same friends as they were online.
What community means today? I thought it's a group of people, they are connected, they want to help other members, they are on the same side, fighting together. But what I see is that today you're gonna write a label on your social media profile and that probably makes you part of the community...
I was trying to get into lolita comm few years ago. And I lost my interest soon. I was chilling with other lolitas in tearooms, but I was always the quiet one in the corner and I realized that fashion doesn't connect people and fashion meetings seems that they are organized because some group girls just wants to look good and have a pictures of themselfs. I've found some friends there, yes, one or two girls are still in my heart even if I havent seen them for ages, but they helped me a lot and that's the thing I'm looking for in community and in friendship. Support and help.
I tried to see what's happening in our goth community, cause it's probably much bigger than lolita or strega (I have to admith that strega certainly needs to be connceted via internet). Goth comm seems like it might be local thing almost everywhere. So there are some goths here in my city, but they're like 18 years old manson fans, experimenting with drugs, talking about satanism and reading books about manipulation and they are so selfish that even if it is some kind of local goth community, it can't really work as helpfull, calm and nice society I am looking for.
So I need to think about czech goth community in global and yes - it works. But it seems like there is just about 10 people at all. They are connected together, they're visiting concerts together, ordering LPs together, recommending music, organizing parties.. And on the parties, you can see so many other goths, but they are mostly lost, trying to find some stable status in community, but they ended up unseen and unimportant.
And it makes me think about us - modern generation. Our parents were living real underground. They wanted to fight with the system, my parents were aginst communism and my father was playing in forbidden hard core band. And it connected artists and free-minded people, community was created without any hard struggles and they had the same target in front of them - to destroy communism. We're just creating our perfect characters on social media, listening to music which was underground many years ago, but now it's just irrelevant (but of course still good) music. We need to move on somehow. Use the internet for informations and for organizing real events. We need to have a same goal and go for it together. Start with a little things with your friends and make it bigger and bigger.
I need the real underground!
so... my goal is to start with tattoing people as soon as it's possible and connect alternative people thru it. Make some money to run a club with my boyfriend and organize something like black saturdays to wake up the goth scene in our city. We need to fight the calmness of this stupid city, where all the alternative clubs are destroyed by higher politicians (they had to cancel so many antifa concerts last year, I was shocked).
I would love to connect all the strega lovers too, but I'm really not sure how. What could connect us? Just imagine the strega full moon meet up, it would be real witches ritual! :D
Have nice day and don't forget to do today something that makes you happy :)
N.
Not sure how to start, but let’s take it chronological..
I’m 1994
kid and I was born in golden age of grunge. Kurt Cobain was freshly dead
and his fame was rising even more thanks to this. I was born to
“underground” family, my father was famous hardcore bass player, my
mum’s nickname was Patti Smith.
So that’s my start. I was raised in
classic rock surroundings. When I was in uterus, my mum was listening
Nirvana. The first music that I ever heard and even now, when I hear
Nirvana, it’s for one hand too
over-listened, but for another it’s still magical and usually when I
sleep and dream about some music, it’s Nirvana.
Kid years are mostly about kids songs and what your parents listens.
So basically they gave me great music basics. Patti Smith, Velvet
Underground, The Doors, Alice in Chains, David Bowie, Hendrix, Janis
Joplin, Joan Jett, Jefferson Airplane, …
When I was like.. 10 years old, I started to really like some music,
that showed me my parents and I also started with finding something new by myself.
I became a big fan on Pixies, PJ Harvey and System of a Down. Especially PJ Harvey, I also infected my cousin :D
When
I was 12, we had almost the same music taste with my cousin, so we were
exchanging music that we like and it was almost like some competition
“who will find better music”. We found that the music we like is called
“alternative” and “indie”.
I loved Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Arctic Monkeys, I
remember that The XX was really unknown new band, The Kills and The
Dead Weather, The Libertines and Pete Doherty…
Okay. I was 13-14, when I met metalhead guy and he was big
inspiration for me. He was the only intelligent guy in my age that i
knew. I was never metalhead, but at this period I found some awesome music that is
connected with metal. Tool, Nine Inch Nails, Marilyn Manson, The
Agonist, Deftones, more Serj Tankian..
Okay.
Next. I was 15, dating 23 years old guy who liked “soft” music. I was
still into all these old thing I was listening (when you start to like
something, it’s all your life with you. You can’t throw away your
“indie” period. It’s still with you.), but I was trying hard to find
some music that we both can like. I also started to listen dark cabaret.
So the queen for me was Emilie Autumn, of course. Than Amanda Palmer, Birdeatsbaby, Nouvelle Vague, Vermilion Lies..
Soon I discovered Siouxsie and the Banshees. I was 16, maybe 17. And
with Siouxsie, Bauhaus. My aunt was always listening Sisters of Mercy in
car and I started to love it. I also remember listening Alien Sex
Fiend, summer 2011, and my father who said “oh i was listening this when
I was your age”. Joy Division. I was also more and more depressed and
this music was just the right thing for me.
End of my first relationship. I was even more
depressed, crying daily with Nick Cave’s music. I went to Finland for
erasmus. Cure mania started. I tried to find some good post-punk and
“goth” music. Cabaret Grey, Echo and the Bunnymen, Jesus and Mary Chain,
Killing Joke, Savages, Sex Gang Children, Silent Scream,..
I started to be happy about this new “genre” i found for myself and
my parents never told me about it /and they knew many of these bands!/
It was like… patch for my bleeding. I started to look ahead for my life.
I dated the sexiest punk boy from my city and I was so proud of it.
We were listening punk mostly, but we both liked also post-punk and goth
music. Again it was like competition - who will find better music. It
was awesome period, but we were too stupid and like.. .”proud punk pair”
that was together just thanks to alcohol. So we broke up. It gave me
great music to listen! Misfits, I studied classical punk bands, also Tom
Waits, Christian Death, Black Flag…
Okay. Than the short period with jazz lover. We were listening Nick Cave together and Morphine.
Again - too much alcohol in relationship.
Even shorter period of dating with awesome and sexy goth guy, but we
started to date sooner then we could really know each others and i have to
say that this person is great friend but I need a totally different
kind of man. But he showed me some awesome bands and also he showed me
how to “find” goth concert in czech republic and that’s it’s not so
weird to visit them.
I'm listening Belgrado, Masquerade and Skeletal Family thanks to him.
Okay. I was 18 and my music taste was almost where it is right now. I
was trying to find something calm but dark at she same time. Crystal
Stilts, AKACOD, White Fence, Thee Oh Sees. Sonic Youth times. Something
between alternative, dark atmosphere and jazzy sounds.
I started to date my current boyfriend when I was 19. I was listening
my “dark” music, but he showed me jazz and I liked it. Typical Miles
Davis. Lou Donaldson, Herbie Hancock, Lonnie Smith. Than also calm
music as
Air, Can,..
But I was tired of all these stupidly “happy” sounds and I showed some of my music to my BF.
We together started to like more electronic music. I like electronic
sounds in cold wave music, he is more into normal electro or techno.
Today I like dark electronic music. I like typical old rock
legends. I like old goth legends. But now I’m examining cold wave
and dark wave and I'm not so much into deathrock as I was.
So now… it’s all about Lebanon Hanover, Xmal Deutschland, She Past
Away, Linea Aspera, Pleasure Symbols, Absolute Body Control, Beta Evers,
The Soft Moon, Gazelle Twin, Haus Arafna, etc.
But still… you can’t throw away your old times. So sometimes I just
need to listen something that I was listening while my punk period or
indie period or metal period… :)
And I have to say THANK YOU to everyone who influenced me.
Hello!
I'm sorry that I'm not writing so much, but I!'m just enjoying my free time!
Cause I successfully graduated and now I have the longest holidays ever :)
But I have to tell you few things...
Im partying almost every day. Last week I was also on Masquerade concert in Prague and it was perfect! After concert I was drinking with the band, they were so nice! Finnish mentality is just... also mine mentality. Next day I helped them with orientation in Prague and on the main train station and everything was just so great :)
Next thins is that I broke up with my boyfriend and now I feel so great! It was really great decision, cause our relationship was so shitty last days. Im afraid that Im not going to be free for a long time...
Yesterday we got little black kitty :)
I have also many things to do. My main holiday plans..:
Hi!
At Friday I had my opening day of exhibition and at Saturday my blog-friends had opening day of their exhibition. So I am very cultural!
At Friday I had to be there, in this coffee bar at 13 o'clock so I came and they said something like "go for a joint with us". So I get like... very high, cause they had strong weed and I am used for our home-weed. So I was just sitting there for next two hour and than came my mother with my grandma. So I started to prepare this exhibition very quickly and I was like "no, Im in hurry, Im not gonna talk with you roght now" :D
Well... And than I was just waiting for a start. My opening speech was something really stupid. It was at first very cute, something like... "I love everybody here and I'm almost crying that you are here and you are so sweet and kind and blahblab and world peace and blah..." and than I said that I'm gonna play my feelings on accordion and when I started to play it was like squeezeng every button on accrodion and making very bad noise. Than my friends were playing on their guirars and I was just talking with my friends here.
I also sold three of my paintings! Yaay!
And than, next day, there was this exhibition of blog-twins. I saw them for a first time and they are perfect! I was drinking very slowly, but I was in very good mood :) and it was really nice evening.
And now its time for photos... and than studying... :/
N.
Monday, May 5, 2014
Hello!
I'm in the end of my written national maturity final exams. We had some essay in english at friday and today we had long essay in czech, our mother language and test from rules of czech language. Well, I wasn't even a little bit nervous and I think I did it well.
I have just some articles and themes I want to write about and I dont want to forget it or just throw it away, so I promise you that I'm gonna write about theese:
how to deal with emotional weakness
good goth music from unusual countries
me and drugs
I'm also moving back to my house and my family after all exams, so I'll have my clothes together and I can resume my lookbook profile. I wanna show you some of my DIY projects too. All I need is some camera :/
I found new small cage for rats in bin. Actually it's for birds, but I put it on original cage and they have new floor. I also put some rope in so they can climb :) and they love their new floor!!
I'm going to have some author reading. That's funny, cause I was trying to arrange author reading for my friend who writes some poems and the main organizator said that it's going to be female night and that I'm standing out too - and NO rejections!
I'm smoking weed again. But I'm not drinking alcohol with it. And I like it again. I'm trying to write poems when I'm high and I think it's not so bad!
Today I'm going to pub! It's Beltine and I think I could do some ritual. About my "daddy issues" that I don't have but still I have them. Every alternative doctor of mine thinks that I had some problems with my father when I was child and that's why I have scoliosis. And when I was talking with my sister about my relationship problems she had one explanation. Very Freud-ish. That I'm trying to find in mans something that my father never had. And that's why every of my boyfriends acts like that I'm stupid little child and they have to educate me and take too much care of me.
At friday it's big maturity test. One of four. At friday it's just letter in english, so I'm not nervous, cause I have my self-confidence about me and my english language. I'm not very good in grammar, but still I can use it without any problems.
I have "new" phone. It's not some old Nokia 3310! It has also very bad camera, radio etc. But it's too fragile that I can't open beer with it.
Nothing special is happening theese days... Im just tired of school - I was studying whole weekend just because of big test from history of art! And now I know everything!!! Everything from the Egypt to the every kind of modern art! And it will be worse - my graduation is closer and closer and I didnt even start with other subjects.
Im just drinking alcohol all the time and I dont want to stop. I was on Balkan jazz last week - and it was perfect! I also found some Balcan post-punk band - also perfect. I love the language and specific atmosphere.
And its true spring now. I like to smoke cigarettes at this time of year, K. didnt even know and my friends are telling me, that I smoke too much. But... i just love the taste in spring more than ever.
Well... Today I was watching Hannibal with Macho, my friend, in school. And I'll go to the "batsave" party. Who knows what it will be, I suppose there will play some death rock and post punk music and everyone will be so goth... I have to find someone who will go with me. Im starting to look forward!
I was sad last weeks because I missed Finland and old times too much.
But now everything in this way is better :) One of my finnish friends, Lauri, arrives to the Prague at Monday and I saw him yesterday with my friend Klara. We were in carnival walk celebrating the time of not eating a meat before easters. I am vegetarian and other people still will eat meat in next 40 days, but this is just traditon.
We had some masks and the walk was really long. After the walk we bought some drink and food in stall, I bought some hot wine to warm up and after this we went to the pub. Typical czech pub, smoke everywhere, good (and cheap!) beer and drunk fat mans around. I like it sometimes and I was glad that Lauri can see this typical czech ugly pub :D We were drinking and smoking and talking and it was great!
I also know some new finnish words. We were talking about many things - education systems in our countries, alcohol and some rules in Finland, about nazi guys which beats hippie guys in Finland, about relationships etc...
So I have a little bit of Finland here and I am (almost) happy now :)
Tomorrow I will have my prom. I am scared and I hate my school-mates and I dont know what to wear.
But I'll get drunk! My whiskey is waiting :)
But nothing happend. Now I am without money and still with my real colour at the hair-roots.
Haha. Typical lucky me :D
But I know what I will do to my maturity practical exams. Promotional materials for my friend-band voo. T-shirts, logo, posters, cd covers, lp covers,..
So it's here again. School after spring holidays...
My spring holidays were... fine. I dont know - I was with K. almost all the time. I wanted to go to pub with some of my old friends, but I'm just too shy to tell them. So, yes, It was a little bit sad and when you add my self-hate problems I'm having last time, I didn't have good holidays.
Last winter, in February 2013, I was on exchange visit in Finland.
And now nostalgy comes to me. I have to write something about it right now. And show you mine photographies.
