Shoes on my wishlist

Hello.
As a poor alt girl I always need to think before I buy some piece of clothing, cause I need to pay my rent, eat and now I need to feed also my little vampire inside of my belly. But I am also making my wishlists and when I get some extra money I'm buying the pieces I need preferably.
I am also absolutely crazy about all the weird goth shoes you can buy online. And Im gonna show you some of my favourite:

1. Shoes with transparent platform you can fill up.

And don't even tell me it's not everyone's wet dream! It's like having endless shoe choice, cause you can fill it up every day differently. One day dry blossoms, next day lego... little bones, pieces of dolls, pills, candies, shells, rainbow marbles, ... and another + is that you have a rational reason to collect weird things! 

2. Real winklepickers

But I am really choosy when it comes to winklepickers. I don't like big shiny clips, too long pikes and somehow i just hate the ones with a tiny little heel. So I guess my "fake" winklepickers I have are really good for my requirements. 

my "fake" winklepickers

3. Iron Fist Midnight Widdow creepers

okay, theese shoes I'm going to wear on my wedding and my wedding seems to be soon (in three, four months, i guess). And they are on my wishlist for a reeeally long time so I deserve it! 

4. Buffalo platform shoes

...but I guess I'll never buy them. They are too high for me and too expensive (even without shipping).

4. Typical Demonia under-knee boots

I absolutely love them, they're not even hard to buy, but... I feel like I am too old for it? Hehe. I have a feeling that theese shoes are more for the "party goths" and extroverts, they are screaming I AM HERE and they are shiny and high and so cool and I guess that I just missed the good timing for theese shoes. I feel too old and too shy and too sober for it, but there will be always something inside of me, wanting to catch up what I've missed.

5. Anything good looking with big platform :D
...im not so choosy when it comes to sales and second hand things and I am actually masturbating when I'm browsing throught shoe section on dollskill.com
so here are some of my favourites

ooohh i love this dark wooden platform so much

Which shoes are you dreaming about? Which shoes do you like or hate on my wishlist?

Have a great day!

N.

News.

Hello!!
I am here after two really long weaks and it seems like it's not even ending. And i am here with some news that will deffinetly affect my life.
So!! Really great thing is that I've done all my exams and I get all A's so I might get stipendium again! Yay but the stress was painfull, I had really hard times. Maybe I'll show you some of my projects Ive done this semester.
Another thing is... Im something like apprentice in tattoo studio!! They will teach me all the techniques and I'll learn to tattoo and they wanted me because of my drawings! And they are really nice there. They want original authors and artists, no boring skulls and butterflies. So that's really big succes for me! They told me that I might be famous tattoo artist and that they want me to teach everything so I can do my work best. 

But the best thing I have to tell you is...
that I'll be mother in 8 months. It was quite shocking information for me, but now Im so happy about it! Im finnishing studies this spring and then taking care of a child? Of my OWN child! I'ts so magical. The mystery of life. Something half me - half my man. We created new life together. And it wasnt even planned :D but it's a great surprise and I belive that this is something called destiny. 

So!! Wish me good luck and have a nice day!
N.

My favourite things about the 80s

I see all around how 80's are on the rise in every possible way.. And I'm really happy about this fact, cause 80's is really my favourite era in "modern" society. And I'll tell you why.

GOTHS
Of course, one of the main reasons is that the goth subculture was born in 80's, club Batcave was the main scene and a lots of awesome music was on the rise. 

/from Buzzfeed.com/

AESTHETIC
Who doesn't know 80's aesthetic? Glam vibes, shiny materials, I just love this weird kitsch pop culture! The thing that lyrics were often telling stories. Perm hair and platform shoes and fake wind and big hair and curly hair and fringes and even bigger hair and shiny makeup everywhere. Aaaah i would love to see everyone around looking like this :D

look at this video, its full of things Im talking about.
And rest in peace, Pete Burns <3

WIM WENDERS MOVIES
I mean, it's really important moment in cinematography. Wim Wenders is my very favourite director and he shooted Paris Texas and Wing of Desire in 80's, his best work - in my opinion. He created modern art movies and inspired other directors. 

BAD (or at least weird) SCI-FI
It really is the capture for itself. I'll just mention... The Toxic Avenger, UHF, Flash Gordon, Total Recall, Gremlins... Still related with the point about aesthetic :D I love that theese movies are full of cheap effects and i just fuking love COSTUMES OF BODY, like... Costume of muscled chest, costume of scarred chest, costume of simply weird chest.

PLATFORM SHOES
and other things about glam rock fashion. I love the thing that mostly mans were wearing platform extravagant shoes. Why are mens so normal theese days? They should wear platform shoes or at least high leather boots! Let males wear what they want and stop calling it gay, it's nice and awesome and PLEASE i neeeeed it so much in my life!!

Bowie in platform shoes

DAVID BOWIE
we saw him on the picture about shoes, but he needs his own caption. I have nothing to add. Just - David - Bowie. And a lots of hearts and kisses.

SYNTHS
Synthesizers are coming back and they're also making many copies of old legendary analog synths! That's really one of the best things I can see now. Few years ago it was for weird geeks, but now it's comming back and I just love it! Minimal synth music, come to me.



Unfortunatelly, I'm 90's kid, so its really unknown history for me. I know some important cultural things, but I really don't know what was it to live at this time. But I am really curious how people will take in this 80's trend and if I'm not gonna start to hate it :D

About communities and underground.

Hello.

I had a really lazy day today, I am a bit sick, so I slept for many many hours, and the rest of the day, I was watching some youtube videos from music documents throught harajuku fashion videos to goth youtubers and my head is full of thoughts...

I would like to start with the word community. Im not gonna tell you where and who, but I heard someone talking about "strega community" and it get my attention, cause I myslet think that it might be the community where I would love to have some friends and be part of it. But then I just realized that "community" probably means you're just followings other strega people on tumblr and they're following you and maybe youre liking or rebloging each others posts and thats it. They might know just your profile, not you, and if you will see them one day face to face, it's probably gonna be weird and tense? They might not be the same friends as they were online.
What community means today? I thought it's a group of people, they are connected, they want to help other members, they are on the same side, fighting together. But what I see is that today you're gonna write a label on your social media profile and that probably makes you part of the community...
I was trying to get into lolita comm few years ago. And I lost my interest soon. I was chilling with other lolitas in tearooms, but I was always the quiet one in the corner and I realized that fashion doesn't connect people and fashion meetings seems that they are organized because some group girls just wants to look good and have a pictures of themselfs. I've found some friends there, yes, one or two girls are still in my heart even if I havent seen them for ages, but they helped me a lot and that's the thing I'm looking for in community and in friendship. Support and help.
I tried to see what's happening in our goth community, cause it's probably much bigger than lolita or strega (I have to admith that strega certainly needs to be connceted via internet). Goth comm seems like it might be local thing almost everywhere. So there are some goths here in my city, but they're like 18 years old manson fans, experimenting with drugs, talking about satanism and reading books about manipulation and they are so selfish that even if it is some kind of local goth community, it can't really work as helpfull, calm and nice society I am looking for.
So I need to think about czech goth community in global and yes - it works. But it seems like there is just about 10 people at all. They are connected together, they're visiting concerts together, ordering LPs together, recommending music, organizing parties.. And on the parties, you can see so many other goths, but they are mostly lost, trying to find some stable status in community, but they ended up unseen and unimportant.


And it makes me think about us - modern generation. Our parents were living real underground. They wanted to fight with the system, my parents were aginst communism and my father was playing in forbidden hard core band. And it connected artists and free-minded people, community was created without any hard struggles and they had the same target in front of them - to destroy communism. We're just creating our perfect characters on social media, listening to music which was underground many years ago, but now it's just irrelevant (but of course still good) music. We need to move on somehow. Use the internet for informations and for organizing real events. We need to have a same goal and go for it together. Start with a little things with your friends and make it bigger and bigger.
I need the real underground!
so... my goal is to start with tattoing people as soon as it's possible and connect alternative people thru it. Make some money to run a club with my boyfriend and organize something like black saturdays to wake up the goth scene in our city. We need to fight the calmness of this stupid city, where all the alternative clubs are destroyed by higher politicians (they had to cancel so many antifa concerts last year, I was shocked).
I would love to connect all the strega lovers too, but I'm really not sure how. What could connect us? Just imagine the strega full moon meet up, it would be real witches ritual!  :D

Have nice day and don't forget to do today something that makes you happy :)
N.

My favourite OOTD bloggers

Hello (someone??)!
I would like to make a list of my favourite ootd bloggers and share it with you. I myself am trying to shoot some ootds and Im posting them on my tumblr and I am following there some awesome people having really inspiring style.

1. Mai Magi

Mai Magi is in the role of absolutely white side good guy when it comes to opinions, but that's cute :) When it comes to fashion, she is not afraid of anything. She's a lady, fairy and warrior in one person. I absolutely love her dark fantasy inspired outfits, I like that her attitude is not screaming "I AM THE FASHION ICON AND IM GONNA RULE THE WORLD", she's as calm as her fashion style is, but still so original that noone of us could even imagine..

2. Gore'n'ghibli

Gore and ghibli is a girl of trend called ninja goth and I absolutely love it. She's layering black ragged and scatted pieces and she looks like some kind of a dark ghost, i love the paranormal feeling of her fashion style. Chceck her out, she's a cute badass with an awesome style.

3. Larissa from Fox and Lionheart

Larissa is also master of layering black pieces of clothing, but in more femine hair. She's also for me the icon, she showed me that I don't need to have a black (or silver or weird colored) hair for wearing all black outfits. Shes wearing more classical goth fashion, but with unordinary ordinariness.

4. Manic Moth

I talked about Mai Magi and I can't forget Manic Moth. They seems to be somehow conncected, they are like almost the same person for me. Anyway, Manic Moth is more "hardcore", she's not afraid of really absolutely extreme things, she's wearing whatever comes to her mind and its not decent, but its breathtakingly stylish. She seems to be nice and peacefull person and yeah, you can see it in her outfits too, she's fairy, but sometimes she looks also like bloodthirsty werewolf. I love theese contrasts. 


Im trying to think about anyone else, but i just can't think about anyone who's so original and ispiring for me. I follow many of trad goths and they're great, but it's old good trad goth as we all know. I also love some strega bloggers, but they are all just taking inspiration from Mai Magi. 

Who's your favourite ootd blogger?
N.

My hair and hair goals

Hello.
Today I decided to write about my hair goals, hair aesthetic I like etc.

I was born as blond little angel and I hated it so much since I was at first grade. I wanted to get rid of it as soon as my parents allow me to die my hair.
So when I was 15, I bought red hair colour and I was wearing this same red hair colour for almost four years. Then I started to hate it, unnatural red helmet on my head, also very damaged. I've get very short haircut and I started with ginger henna colour and soon I ended with colouring my hair completely.

me with red hair 4 years ago

Now I my hair colour is something indescribable, but absolutely natural. Its somehow blonde, somehow ginger, somehow brown... you know, wet straw colour.. 

Right now Im growing my hair as much as I can, trying to keep it heathly. I'm experimentaly colouring it sometimes, with purple or blue foam hair colours, it stays just one or two wash or sometimes with some directions colour or also with one special type of violiet sores lotion :D But I don't want to bleach my hair, so it's almost viewless. 
I would like to show you all the hair cuts I wish I could have, but now I have different goal and I don't know if I'll ever try to achieve some of them.

So the first thing I'm dreaming about is having black hair! I don't want to change my hair colour so rapidly, so I guess I'll never even try it, but it would be awesome to be "all black". 
Another thing I would love to wear is black bob as Cleopatra, as Mathilda from Leon, as Olga Hepnarová, as Larissa from Lebanon Hanover, as Jane Lane from Daria. Haircut of strong females with dark side. 

I, Olga Hepnarova

Next thing I would like to create on my head, by I just don't know if it will really suit me, is deathrock mohawk - or just somehow shaved sides as you know from trad goth style.  I think I'll never do it, cause I have really thin hair and I just can't take off any volume, also this hairstyle requires so many back combing and I want to have healthly hair :D Also I don't feel like this would suit to my real "me".

Deathrock mohawk... (I don't know who's the girl on photo, if you know, tell me)

Another thing... Bald head. I absolutely adore all the girls that could do it, it's someow really important thing to do and I understand what leads you to do it, cause I had a problem with how society sees the girls with long hair and with short hair. Sometimes you need a rest from your "girly" look and side. BUT I think Im over it now, I don't have a problem with it so why would I do that? Haircut is not just haircut, it's symbolical thing, it's ritual.
 

Roseshock's bald head

Another thing really can't wear but I'm so jealous about people who can - short bangs. I tried it and I looked like a penis, I just need to wear my long lolita fringe, cutted exactly few milimiters above the eyebrows.

Yuka Mannami

 Than I would be also happy if blue or purple hair colour could stay on unbleached hair, but that's again my stupid problem with bleach. I would also like to try dreadlocks one day, but I just somehow... don't want to be considered as a hippie or party girl. I love the thing that you can put some weird coloured snakes on you head, but I hate the thing that it's dreads :D I'm sorry, but I absolutely hate dreads. I had many dreadhead hippie friends, but under their happy face is so many problems and they're hiding their dark side so much...
So because I just don't know what to do with my hair, Im just letting it grow and grow and I want really long hair. Mabye one day I'll try black henna, or maybe I'll lighten it so I'll be real blonde as I was as a kid.




What are yours hair goals of dreams? 
N.

Thrifting tour

Hello.
I was in two big second hands yesterday and I am so happy about my haul. We have a great sales at thrift shops once in a month in my city. Whole Czech Republic is really cheap when it comes to second hand pieces, I bought 5 pieces yesterday and spent about 3 €, that's like lunch or 3 beers. But because I am lucky person, first I bought snacks, won 4 € (ongoing contest "find money inside of package") and then went to thrift shops.


So the first thing I bought are theese black dresses. They will be great in summer, but I am afraid that I'm not gonna combine it with anything. Just simple black tights under and nothing more. Also they are really really tight for me and I can see my stomach, brests and even hem of tights. But great thing is that they're showing my back, so my tattoo is visible.

Then I bought dark grey jumper and I am absolutely in love with it. It has a small pocket, its really short, ends just above the navel, you can see all the hems and there are little silver cubes hanging on a little shoelaces. I would say that it's "street punk" jumper and it's waiting for summer evenings. 

Another thing I bought is this turtle neck weird plaid with bat wings? Or how to call it. It has holes for hands and its all flaring... I love turtle necks in this season and this could be the upper layer of very witchy and strega outfits. I needed something like cape or tippet.

Than I bought same shaped thing in black, made of much thicker fabric and with buttons  There are also little holes for hands and its weirdly sewed together. I'm absoltely in love with this, it's great upper layer for layery outfits, I tried it yesterday when I went to concert to philharmonic orchestra. And it's awesome when it's freezing outside!

The last thing I bought is this vest cardigan or how to call it..? It's also nice thing for layering, I really like it, but I would never buy it for more than 1€, cause it seems for me like just piece of nonsensical fabric and it must be really simply to DIY it or DIY something else with the same flaring effect. 

I am so happy with my new pieces of clothing and I cant wait to wear all of them. I was in both shops for a really long time, madly searching, and it was worth it!

What about you and thrifting? Are you lucky?